Too late for regrets
Baby Nmembe died in the night. It was only her second night with us. I heard her stir a little at 1 AM but nothing else. At breakfast, Barb commented that she had slept all night and gone 14 hours since feeding; when I checked on her she was gone. There is nothing I can say except that I failed her and her mother, not being careful and attentive enough. So many regrets. I should have kept her in the ICU and found someone to nurse her there. I should have realized she was unstable. I should have kept her warmer, given her more fluid, have had her sleep with us, checked on her in the night, put her on IV fluids. Anyway, I didn’t, I was too careless, and she died. She was her mother’s dear hope, for all her previous three children had also died. Now she has gone home to her village eight hours away.
See Susan Bertrand’s and Saralynn’s blog entries about Nmembe
January 20th, 2007 at 8:12 pm
Ive been following your blog for a while, and i want to say you are doing such a great thing for the kids. I think you did a lot for baby Nmembe and if she could see you, she would probably thank you rfom he bottom of her heart. Please do not blame yourself for her death, as the bible says ” there is a time to be born and a time to die”. God knows why he took her away, i can only imagine-probably to save her from more suffering and pain.
Take heart. I pray that God will comfort you and baby Nmembes mom in this time of grief.